Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Happy 2nd Birthday Mary Grace!
Happy 2nd Birthday Mary Grace. I can’t believe it’s been two years since I held your perfect little body in my arms. I can’t believe it’s been two years since I rubbed my nose all over your sweet face and heard your sweet little gurgles. Your skin was so soft and you smelled so good. I would give anything to have those moments back. But…that’s a mute point I guess. Just yesterday I felt my arms ache for you….the literal ache that I haven’t felt in a while. The ache to hold your 3 lb petite body in my arms. It made me want to drive to the hospital and find a premature baby and ask if I could hold her/him. Think they would call the police when a crazy momma came asking for that? I prayed the other night, like so many that God would allow me to dream of you and to somehow feel you in my arms as I slept, like I did the night you went to be with Jesus.
A day has not or will ever go by that I do not miss you. That I do not look back in my rear view mirror and know that one of my girls is missing. There will never be a Christmas that goes by that I do not know that there is one of my daughters that I do not have to shop for, that there is one list that I do not have to check off; misery. There will never be a birthday of yours that goes by that I will know what to do with myself. There will never be any holiday really, Valentine’s Day, Easter etc. that I am not reminded that I should be preparing for 4 girls. But….all that comes back to remind me that you are real to me, you are real to our family and death cannot change that. It reminds me that I am a mother to four perfect girls and that because of Jesus that’s forever! I know you are perfectly happy with our Maker and I have peace about that…..but I miss you, I always will.
His GRACE is sufficient and I will rest in His arms because that is the only true comfort I will ever have.
I praise Him today for you, my sweet Mary Grace Summons. I will praise Him forever. You brought me joy unspeakable and full of glory!! I love, love, love you.
Happy 2nd Birthday to sweet Jacob Ryan too!
He will shield you with His wings!! They will shelter you. His faithful promises are your armor. Psalm 91:4