I have so much to be thankful for. Yes...I do realize that and am thankful. I keep repeating to myself "I serve a risen Savior, He's in the world today, I know that He is living whatever men may say. He lives, He lives, Christ Jesus lives today....He walks with me and talks with me, along life's narrow way, He lives...He lives Salvation to impart....You ask me how I know He lives? He lives within my heart" ...because it brings me comfort. The comfort that comes from Hope like I never understood before.
I have nothing really profound to say and really struggle putting anything into words for the blog these days. What I can say is that even though I am happy, thankful and know I am blessed and am enjoying my girls so very much.....it's still a struggle. Sometimes daily. But...especially when holidays come around. When I am hurrying to find dresses and socks and bows and shoes and cute purses to carry to church..... for three girls and it should be Four. It's a struggle and a weight. When I struggle to think of something that the "Easter Bunny" can bring for Mary Grace that even makes sense. When I go to get the Easter Lillys for her and can't even find any at the one store I have time to stop in that are bloomed.....it makes me angry and frustrated and I think "is that too much to ask??". I guess you get the picture.
But...when I wake up this morning (an hour early because my clock automatically changes when it thinks its Eastern Standard time and decides that was last night!!)...I woke up with peace. Because He is risen, that closes the deal. He was born yes.....and yes He died on the cross for me (an amazing sacrifice) BUT He is risen!! That seals the deal....it brings the hope and the assurance I need to know that my sweet Mary Grace is indeed with my living Savior and that I will be with all 4 of my girls again. I am trying to focus on that today.....not my physically missing girl. I miss her.
I'm okay. And I am thankful and I love my Jesus. So....Happy Easter. I am so thankful I have that!