Sunday, April 4, 2010

He Lives!!

I have so much to be thankful for. Yes...I do realize that and am thankful. I keep repeating to myself "I serve a risen Savior, He's in the world today, I know that He is living whatever men may say. He lives, He lives, Christ Jesus lives today....He walks with me and talks with me, along life's narrow way, He lives...He lives Salvation to impart....You ask me how I know He lives? He lives within my heart" ...because it brings me comfort. The comfort that comes from Hope like I never understood before.

I have nothing really profound to say and really struggle putting anything into words for the blog these days. What I can say is that even though I am happy, thankful and know I am blessed and am enjoying my girls so very's still a struggle. Sometimes daily. But...especially when holidays come around. When I am hurrying to find dresses and socks and bows and shoes and cute purses to carry to church..... for three girls and it should be Four. It's a struggle and a weight. When I struggle to think of something that the "Easter Bunny" can bring for Mary Grace that even makes sense. When I go to get the Easter Lillys for her and can't even find any at the one store I have time to stop in that are makes me angry and frustrated and I think "is that too much to ask??". I guess you get the picture.

But...when I wake up this morning (an hour early because my clock automatically changes when it thinks its Eastern Standard time and decides that was last night!!)...I woke up with peace. Because He is risen, that closes the deal. He was born yes.....and yes He died on the cross for me (an amazing sacrifice) BUT He is risen!! That seals the brings the hope and the assurance I need to know that my sweet Mary Grace is indeed with my living Savior and that I will be with all 4 of my girls again. I am trying to focus on that today.....not my physically missing girl. I miss her.

I'm okay. And I am thankful and I love my Jesus. So....Happy Easter. I am so thankful I have that!


Laurie in Ca. said...

This same song rings in my heart this morning Kim. I think of you often and ask Him to bless you and your family. It is good to hear from you and yes, my heart still hurts for you missing Mary Grace. You always will sweet friend and I wish it wasn't so. Love you and praying for you today.

Love and Hugs, Laurie

Emily said...

I SO hear you, sweet Kim. No one else I know can understand quite like you can... feeling that void of girl #3 all the time... yet totally enjoying girls #1,2, and 4. Whew.

I had a meltdown Saturday morning. Something about a holiday compounded with a first birthday... and realizing there'd been no 1st birthdays here in 4 years... yeah, it was a bit much.

But I, too, have found GREAT joy in knowing He is risen. Risen indeed. Our hope is secure. Our girls are, too. :)

Just Me said...

I suppose I could leave comments even when there isn't a new post, but I'm not so good at that...ha!

Still think about you and your precious family (I never did send you an email after I had the crazy dream where I showed up on your doorstep and invited myself to a party at your house...even though it was completely awkward that a "stranger" was at your door wanting to play with your children and talk about precious Mary Grace, you were super I imagine you to be "in real life"...I promise that if I'm planning to show up on your doorstep, I'll give you a "heads up"...ha!)

Happy almost birthday to Summons girl number 4...hope there will be pictures :o)

Glad your Easter was blessed...mine was as well.
Take care,

Christy said...

I have been thinking of you so much lateley. I wish that I was closer to be able to help. Always know that I am here for you.

All my love,

Anonymous said...

Hi, I came across your blog just now...and I don't know what else to say other than I wish you all the best. I admire your faith.

God bless you.

and by the way my name is Mary Grace as well :)

Rebecca said...

Beautiful family! Our daughter is playing in heaven with your Mary Grace. I cannot wait to join them.

Anonymous said...

Kim, If you could write to me at I am 2nd cousin of Chris and would like to ask some help if possible... my name is Cindie and Cliff/Shirley are my parents.. please write if able.. thanks.