God help us

Well, it's early Saturday morning. I am getting ready to pick up my Dad, my Sister and my Brother from the airport. My Mom is already here. They are coming from Kentucky. My in-laws from Maryland will be here tomorrow and Monday we will meet our sweet Mary Grace. You know....I know her already. I know she is precious, she is small, her little feet are crooked, one of her hands is turned down, I know she must be a gracious little thing. When she moves it is slight and gentle little kicks, she has sweet little hiccups and she has my stubborn streak, when someone puts their hand on my belly when she is so active - she immediately stops almost every time!! She's a Mommy's girl already! Can you tell I love just having her with me? God help me.
On Wed. as most of you are aware I got some good news for a change. Some news that made God and prayer so evident that I felt strong and like things were going our way. My Mom came in Thursday, we had breakfast and when we came home I showed off all the little things that my sweet friends have given to Mary Grace - some include a beautiful hope chest to keep her things, outfits, blankets, a bracelet with Mary's name on it, booties, bibles etc. I wasn't sad doing this, it was the first time since about my 13th week that I felt like we were preparing for a normal birth, a "normal" baby. It was sweet. Then Thursday night while taking a bath, reality comes back to me.....what are we preparing for - anything but "normal" ??

Yesterday what was weighing on me most was my sweet girls. They are excited for Mary's birth and I am so afraid for them. Many of our t-18 miracles have had such different stories and I know ours will follow suit. So...help me to pray that the timing for our family, especially for Kailey and Allison, is just right. That it's just what they need, no more, no less - that it will be what their little hearts can handle. (They have medication for adults!). I pray specifically that however "it" happens that God's promise will be fulfilled in them especially, that this will work for good because my sweet little girls love him. They have the purest hearts, they have not "sinned", they do not deserve this trial - so I plead that this is something that will be a great work in them from our God, that they will learn about love, miracles, His plan, His purpose, Heaven, faith, endurance, strength, weakness, - that their hearts will be molded to serve him all the days of their lives - through this - our sweet Mary Grace, Our precious daughter and their sweet Sister. God help them.

Pray also for my neighbor's little girls, Anna and Kathryn - my friend's daughter Rachel... they all love Mary Grace too. I hate this for them. My niece is 11 and she has been saved and baptised. My Dad is a minister and she left him a note the other day at their house and told him that she was saved but had some questions, some things she didn't understand and could she talk to him sometime? So, he went and picked her up and took her for a drive......she said she didn't understand God and things like Mary Grace, and that her Sister Tara (16) has Lupus and has so many issues. Dad spoke to her and she called last night to tell me that she was praying every day for us and Mary Grace. God help them all.

You know I have tried to be as honest and open with my feelings as possible through this - I have been "real". And you know that I can not close this post without saying that through this difficult time in our lives, with all my doubts, with all my fears, with all my praises, with all my questions, with all our heartache, with all our hope and with all our disappointments.........I still know my God is faithful my God is still good. I will hold tight on to that, for that is all the hope any of us have, no matter what the situation.

Point of Grace has a new song out - It touches me. Here are the lyrics.

When the sun starts to rise and I open my eyes, you are good, so good
In the heat of the day with each stone that I lay, you are so good
With every breath I take in, I’ll tell you I’m grateful again
When the moon rises high before each kiss goodnight, you are good

When the road starts to turn, around each bend I’ve learned you are good, so good
And when somebody’s hand holds me up, helps me stand you are so good
With every breath I take in, I’ll tell you I’m grateful again Cause it’s more than enough just to know I am loved and you are good

SO HOW CAN I THANK YOU? WHAT CAN I BRING? WHAT CAN A POOR MAN LAY AT THE FEET OF THE KING?
SO I’LL SING YOU A LOVE SONG, IT’S ALL THAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU I’M GRATEFUL FOR HOLDING MY LIFE IN YOUR HANDS

When it’s dark and it’s cold, and I can’t feel my soul you are STILL good
When the world has gone gray and the rain’s here to stay you are STILL good
With every breath I take in, I’ll tell you I’m grateful again And the storm may swell, even then it is well, and you are good

SO I’LL SING YOU A LOVE SONG, IT’S ALL THAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU I’M GRATEFUL FOR HOLDING MY LIFE IN YOUR HANDS.

Thank you my family in Christ for holding us up - we are thankful.
Kim